So today i feel like after all the dust has settled and i can see a bit more clearly on everything that me feeling have changed towards my girlfriend. She thinks that I am crazy and that not to worry about how I’m starting to feel. I told this to her and the reaction isn’t what I hoped it be. After the few fights we had (nothing to crazy no yelling or anything like that) I feel that I’m not thinking about her as much as I use to. I stopped thinking about what she could be wearing today, or send her a funny story or even texted her for no reason just to tell her I love her. I never thought about her 24/7 but not I just don’t think about her unless she texts or calls me. It makes me feel uneased about that. I think I might be distancing myself from her to try and fall out of love with her. I don’t want that and I’m worried as hell about that. I asked her what she would do if I broke up with her right here right now and she said that she would be sad and just take it as is. Doesn’t sound like she would fight to keep us together. Maybe we are transcending into the other phase of the relationship where most people fail at. I’m kinda lost at where I am at in this right now. Have a million and one thought going thru my head and its about to overload and melt my head into a pool of blood and flesh. So basically I feel like I’m losing this yet my girlfriend don’t think I am. I am also a little sad that she wouldn’t fight to keep us together. Am I over thinking this or should I be worried.
Posted on Tuesday, 9 November 2010
