Fading Out

So last night I talked to a really good friend of mine who moved away.  Shes like my little sister.  Its always nice to talk about your problems with someone who I know won’t talk about them unless it’s with me.  I feel bad that I can talk to her this way but as of right now I can’t with my girlfriend.  Yesterday I didn’t try and talk to my girlfriend or text her.  Today she asked if I was doing OK and I told her I was just being quiet, which in terms is true but shes not getting the whole story.  My trust with my girlfriend is a little broken.  Long story short,  she tell people things i tell her and I have to deal with the aftermath of it all.  I forgave her for it.  But I do second guess on tell her things no.  I got so use to telling my girlfriend everything now its kinda hard not too.  Oh well time just to think about it and over analyze it.  I don’t really dwell on the problem it’s self but I dwell on how it should be fixed.  That is what a lot of people mistake about me.  I get angry because I can’t fix it or know how to.  I know time fixes all but what if you don’t want to wait?  Sometimes I wish I would just get drunk and it would wash my problems out of the way.  But sadly I know too much and I know that it dose not work that way.  :(